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| User: | oh_so_good (6249725) breathe
sometimes i forget |
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| Name: | Nosila | |||||||||||
| Website: | Not Real at All (my photos) | |||||||||||
| Location: | Florida, United States | |||||||||||
| Bio: | This is a friends-only journal in which I write about the more personal parts of my life, specifically my ongoing battles with emotional unbalance, SI, and disordered eating*. If this makes you uncomfortable, move along. If not, welcome. ...But just for the record, if I know you in real life I will be very unlikely to add you to my friends list, due to the private content of this journal. Statistics: I am 22 years old, 5'3" and usually range between 98 (my LW) and 105 lbs. My scary weight is 107. I am trying this new thing where I don't worry about the scale and just worry about how my clothes fit/working out daily. As of 7-22-08 I weigh: 103.0 lbs. I have not cut for over a year. Brief History: Until I was 11 I was severely underweight; I was diagnosed with celiac disease and afterward gained 20 lbs in about a month. Still was at a healthy weight but got stretch marks/fat deposits so I was aware of my weight but never did anything about it. But I have diary entries from HS about feeling fat (I never weighed more than 115 though). We moved out of state when I was 12/13 and I began cutting during preparations for the move. When I got to college I went through rush and was so stressed I forgot to eat and lost 10 lbs in 4 days. After that I just...didn't eat. My would-be-college roommate and a male friend were like "you're too thin" so I weighed myself. I was 102. So I kept not eating on purpose. When I was 98 lbs I sought help and was diagnosed as borderline anorexic. Eventually I gained weight back, but that freaked me out MORE so I restricted again. I took diet pills, etc. My current boyfriend has unknowingly helped me stay "healthier" although he nor almost anyone in my real life knows I still struggle with this. ~jack's mannequin, miss delaney
March 1 is SI Awareness Day. Oh so good I feel oh so good And you right where you are is where I ought to be Somewhere behind the scars there's always room for me" ~melee, pennsylvania told you how I used to be would you go along with someone like me? If you knew my story word for word handled all of my history would you go along with someone like me?" ~peter bjorn and john, young folks ~david campbell ~Arnold Newman Friending policy: Like I said, if I know you personally I will not friend you on this journal. If you request to be friended, friend me first so I can check out your journal. iF yOu TyPe LyKe ThIs I will not friend you. I like to actually read my friends' updates, but if you don't update coherently I can't do that, now can I? If you do not update often, or at all - if there are no entries for me to peruse - I will not friend you. I comment as often as possible; unless I'm at a total loss for words, I will leave at least a word of encouragement. If you need a place to feel safe, to vent and to receive emotional support...well, I've been told I'm pretty good at that. *for the record, I have been diagnosed with my eating disorder, I have suffered from SI for 10 years, and my problems are not stories I concocted just to find a place to fit in. Please be respectful. | |||||||||||
| Memories:: | 2 entries | |||||||||||
| Interests: | 29: adventure, art, bipolar disorder, books, borderline anorexia, celiac, celiac disease, celiac sprue, cutting, depression, ed-nos, fruit, gluten free, haikus, healthy foods, hiking, jean rhys, love, photography, piercings, poetry, reading, self injury, sylvia plath, tattoos, traveling, walks, working out, writing | |||||||||||
| Schools: | None listed | |||||||||||
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| Friend of: | 37: _____90lbs, _dirtyshoes, _per_fect, aliceonshrooms, alltoofamiliar, anasmyobsession, art_____ificial, chicagorda13, deleterewriteme, elbowrist673, eliseajna, emo_ending, eveline5, fading_awayyy, kenziepants, littleladyluck, midnight_vanity, model_dreams, moonmaiden103, nothingleft__, o0abercrombie0o, oh_accidentally, oh_so_good, ohisntshecool, paledreams, prtylitldrty, sammie2005, sequitur_non, skittles44, soalsign, tehholysmoke, tommy_syuki, vauge, xalmost_there, xlost_turtlex, xterriblelie88x, zerogrl | |||||||||||
| Member of: | 2: rosepetalsalad, the_cutters | |||||||||||
| Account type: | Basic Account | |||||||||||
